Once in a while I have day's where I struggle to spend time with the Lord. I find myself uninterested in reading the word and spending time in prayer, ignoring His whispers to sit in His presence. On these days, I take one of two paths: I either suck up my pride and take His hand or spitefully reject Him.
As humans, we find it enticing to live through our own strength.
"God, You're great and all, but I think I can handle today without You. Thanks... bye!"
I repeatedly place trust in the hands of my worldly thoughts instead of quietly sitting with His truth.
The days of self-glorification all end the same: I'm crushed by my burdens because they're too much to bear. It's obvious when I go a day without the Lord; I become depressed, self-righteous, jealous, and angry. Even the apostle Paul admitted his faults, saying "Nothing good lives in me. I have a sinful nature! I want to do what is right, but I can't" (Romans 7:18). Without filling ourselves with His goodness, our lives swiftly turn into a train-wreck.
Obsession with self is a dead end; attention to God leads us out into the open, into a spacious, free life (Romans 8:6). The Lord is not a burden to our daily lives; instead, He takes our burdens, knowing full-well that they can't all fit on our little human shoulders.
